Poetry: "mind the gap"
mind the gap
Paige Knoll, Class of 2021
a train wheel mind
chugs even when the brakes are pulled
it spins at 1:13am and
sparks when i desire the dark
steam and whistle
the chug hum
warning me of
insecurities arriving to the platform
i have this fear that i talk too much
that i’m an open book that reads its own
pages aloud when no one has asked for
a synopsis
i am so afraid of someone coming to
collect my permission slip to be myself and that
i won’t be there after they’ve punched holes to prove
i’ve been used
i am so concerned that people give out kindness like quarter-change
not because they mean it
but because they are
supposed to give it to you
i will always sit backwards
even if it means swallowing my fear like
dramamine
if it means i can be of any help
at all
i worry that i run on a train schedule and
that no one can depend
on my arrival
but i’ll be there
i stop at each jumbled junction and
wonder if i will ever not miss
london trains
train to waterloo arriving in four minutes
there i’ll sit and hold my
Stupid Little Biscuit garnished soy latte
wrapped in magenta paper
now arriving, waterloo
i hate magenta
but i love everything about the gloom of the sky
and the way my mind works when i
mind the gap
i am suddenly transported to
fields of sheep and
strangers who know nothing about me
as soon as a wide vowel leaves my mouth
it’s clear that maybe they
actually want to know
where i came from,
and where i am going.
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